It is too cold....

I feel the winter sludge. It hasn't been above 35 degrees in 2 weeks or so. That is far too cold to run outdoors in my opinion. I haven't been to the gym in months. And my eating habits leave a lot to be desired.  I went a head and preregistered for the on site (during my lunch) for Weight Watchers - it really helped last time, having the weekly weigh in and being held accountable for my weight in front of others really does make me think twice about what I am putting in my mouth.

I am also going to a four day work week until the end of March - I am hoping I can force myself out of bed extremely early on two of my four work days and head to the gym.  Me and mornings do not go well together but I have to give something somewhere.

down a little more...

Today's weigh in brought off another .5.  This is a slooooowww process. One I wish would hurry up.

Quiet Sunday in my office...

I came into my office to pick up something I forgot and wanted to look at tonight.  I love coming in my office on the weekends when no one is here.  It is so quiet and peaceful. The lights are all dim, no students bustling around, no faculty wondering where they are supposed to be. Just quiet.  It is kind of nice.

I had a good weekend food and exercise wise.  I am no longer during intervals on my runs.  We finished week 6 Sat night and now we will just run.  This week we do 25 mins, then we move up to 28 then 30.  It felt good to run Saturday night.  My body and mind both needed it.

This morning we met up for a swim at our gym.  Sadly, a lady came right on time for the next appointment so I had to get out.  I was 6 laps from finishing my mile :(

I had an awesome salad for lunch, straight from my kitchen.  I even skipped the dressing.  The only thing that contained points was the steak (2) so It was a pretty filling and really low filling lunch. Gotta love the (0) point veggies!

I hope everyone had a great weekend.  Hopefully my extra weekend work will once again pay off on the scales... We shall see Thursday!

Really fast...

Ok so last week's weigh in I gained a lot of weight. I knew it was water and so on and period weight but I also made horrible choices.  So the week before the nasty weigh in I weighed 235 - last week I gained a tonnnnn but this week I weighed 233.  I lost all last week's weight plus 2lbs.  WHOHOOOO! Nothing taste as good as thin feels :)

Let's be honest

Last week's weigh in really hit me hard.  It was tough to see the gain when I was trying so hard, I mean yes I ate out but I really was being careful.  Or so I thought.  Now, I would say a good 3 or 4lbs of that is water weight.  Plain and simple - I had a massage the night before and I drank at least 3 gallons of water in the 24 hours leading up to the massage and after.  Put that with my normal water retention during my period and yes, I'll have a weight gain.

I am very, very nervous about tomorrow's weigh in.  I honestly have no idea how I will do.  I think I should do well, but really with last week's numbers I have no clue.

I have been eating wonderfully - still need more fruits and veggies but to be honest that is just because pay day is close and it is the end of the "cycle" clean out fridge time. I will complete week 6 tomorrow of the C25K program.  We finished intervals, we will now be running for block amounts of time each run.  I am ok with that I just wish I could get faster.  I'll save that for another post, LOL.

I have added swimming into the routine this week again and really, REALLY watching every single thing that goes in my mouth.

I think my gain and disappointment from last week has got in my head but I need to refocus and hopefully have a great weigh in tomorrow.  Please keep your fingers crossed?

crap

well today's weigh in wasn't great. It sucked actually, so bad in fact we put an SKIP in today's week and I will never see that number.

I blame it on my poor food choices, my period and the water weight and most of all my eating.

So here is to forgetting today's number and next week's losing number!

Already Tuesday??

Where did the weekend go? Where did Monday go?

I met Rebecca yesterday for an early morning run. Week 5, day 2 - 8min run, 5 min walk, 8 min run - ughhh

It was a beautiful morning to run, I did it. I wasn't fast but I ran it and didn't stop. Tomorrow it is a 20 min straight run. HA, really did I just type that? If you don't hear from me for days, it is because I have had some sort of stroke and maybe dying in my bedroom. Please send help. Thanks.

I took a half of day yesterday. Met a friend for lunch, Old navy shopped and then I went home cleaned a little and met my g'parents who were in town for a wedding and waited for my brother to get off work so we could go to dinner. Olive Garden was yummy, the company was even better. I love spending times with my grandparents. They are amazing people!

Today I came into work, worked some Blogged more and enjoyed the day. Tonight I am meeting Rebecca to start swimming - I am going to add that to my exercise and pick up a spin class and something else this month. I am kicking my butt skinny :)

Updates from the scales...

So down another 1lb. I feel like my next milestone is taunting me. Next week, next week I'll break boundaries and get passed it. I will post later about the begining of week 5 and other musings but for the time being 1lb has left my body and will never return!

THE BIG M

That is what I got today when I weighed in, Maintain. Ughhh. Disappointed, frustrated and blah.

I actually wanted to leave today before the meeting started, but I made myself stick it out and I am glad I did. It was tough but next, next week dammit I will do my 25lbs. Ughhh

That's it for today. - I am going to have a food free pity party.

A little bit of this and that

I have some random things on my mind, what's new right? So please forgive my choppy post that I am about to write, promise to still be friends after? Thanks!

It appears my brother is moving in with me tonight. I am totally ok with this and don't mind. However, you do remember I am getting a roommate this weekend that will now be taking over the guest room. Guess Zachy is taking the couch. Luckily he doesn't have a lot of stuff to move in and he is pretty go with the flow. Most days.

A woman that is backwards nice (the type that has no social skills, tries but in the next breath throws you under the bus) just asked me if I was losing weight. She said you keep getting skinner and skinner....I will take it as a complement and not that she thinks my rear end is getting HUGE...I mean BIGGER than HUGE. :)

We finished up week 4 today. I am still waiting for the endurance and speed to kick in. I am completing the runs. Doing ok, no speed runner that is for sure, but I still feel winded and sore and the last run of the series hurts. Each week I do it, and I am proud of myself. Someday sooner than later I will be able to run 30 mins without blinking an eye. Right?

Tomorrow is weigh in, I really hope to see something higher than 2. A 4 would be great. My problem is right now I am under eating, for this week. Ha, what a change. I run every other day, walk the dog for a few miles on the off night and I have been doing Yoga. Once my brother's car situation gets figured out I will start back up group exercise classes and weights at the gym. Right now it is just too much. So I eat some but I am usually trying to be a million different places that eating out of boredom isn't an issue and neither is feeling hungry when I am not. Now if I could just figure out how to do the weekends right.... I stay within points or use some of my bonus every now and then but I am home more so the urges come.
I am 3lbs away from 25 and my 10%. It would be amazing to hit both of those this weigh in. Keep your fingers crossed, please?!

Part of my insurance benefits covers massage therapy. So in 3 hours I will be getting a nice 60 minute massage for 11$ :) Not a bad way to end today!
I am going to start needing new clothes sooner than later. I am going to try to make it another 15lbs or so before I shop. I have enough friends that I think I can swap clothes with to make it work for awhile. One thing I will need soon is bras. My poor bubbies, they aren’t keeping their shape or size. I am ok with it. Whatever needs to happen to lose weight is OK with this girl. Although I would be lying if I said I didn’t want my thighs and midsection to shrink instead! When did you start noticing a difference in your clothes? Where did you lose it first?


Alright I better go get some work done; I will post tomorrow after weigh in. I am going to try and find some pics and when I reach 200lbs I am going to do a series, maybe then I will really be able to tell the difference!

TGIF

So I didn't post after weigh in yesterday, I got busy with work. But I am down another 1lb. Now after coming off a 5lb lose - I knew it would be small, but come on let me see at least a 2!

This week I vow to run harder, lift heavier and eat lighter!

Speaking of running, Rebecca and I started week 4 yesterday. I got some new shoes, prescription strength muscle rub and some serious stretching in before hand. I felt pretty good during the run. Now I am slow and poor Rebecca has to run ahead of me and then circle back when she gets to far ahead, but she is a GREAT sport and doesn't seem to mind :) I was slow this run, I mean helllllloooo we ran 5 minutes at a time! This girl has never done that before so I was happy. My leg, muscle whatever is going on felt pretty good, tight still and by the end it was hurting but nothing like the run before. This heat though is killer, I got in my car and I was dizzy and hot - we are talking near 100 degree heat during the day. Running at 6:30am and it is still 80ish degrees. Too hot! Sometime this weekend we need to get in day 2 of week 4. I mean after that run, we are kinda like half way done. Wow.

Life is going Ok. I am getting a room mate next weekend to help with some financial issues. Not totally happy with it, but I need the financial assistance right now. I am trying to figure out my plan, what God wants from me and what I need to do. The big picture is just so unclear right now. So until the light bulb goes off, I will keep working on getting the weight off ;)

74lbs away

I am currently 74lbs away from my overall weight loss goal. I didn't realize how heavy I got until a return trip to the OBGYN last week. I had last been there in February. I forgot how much weight I have actually lost. I battle with posting numbers here. I am afraid, ashamed and embarrassed. I don't want people to wonder how I let myself go. Really though, how did I? I am sure it has something to do with the year I spent alone and feeling friendless. It was a horrible time for me my junior year of college. Horrible room mates left me feeling alone and so upset with the way girls treated each other and how catty women could be - I turned to food. Once you turn to it, it is hard to stop.

I went home for the summer, where food was always good, lots of it and soooo yummy that I just couldn't stop eating one plate. My weight sky rocketed and I slowly started climbing up the mountain of obesity. I am kicking fat's ass though. After an awesome weigh in yesterday (down 5lbs) and starting week 3, of C25K - I am feeling good. So I have goals. Goals I want to beat and achieve and really, I KNOW I CAN!

1. BIG GOAL - GET OUT OF THE 200'S - so that means I have to loose 38lbs to be at 199lbs. (ugh did I really just type that?!?!?!)
2. Our first home football game is 9/4/10 I want to be at no more than 210 for kick off. I think I can, I think I can.
3. 9/25/10 - Ideally this is when I'd be out of the 200's...
4. Halloween - I want to be able to go out and feel good, dress up in something I would have picked years ago.
5. Thanksgiving - I want to be in the 190's or less. I have to be. PLEASE :) And thank you.
6. I will run my first 5K Early to late September. I am hoping Rebecca will run it with me :)
7. Make healthy choices no longer a choice, just a way of life.
8. I want to shop for new skinny clothes this Christmas. When we take our girlcation, I want to not be plus size. I want to make 2010 the last year I will shop plus size.
9. I want to help motivate my mom and dad into losing weight. One day, I pray, I will give them grandchildren. I want my parents to be around forever. They need to be healthier.
10. I want to appreciate every single day. I deserve to be healthy. I deserve to give my body, mind and soul all the nourishment it needs. I AM WORTH IT :)

I will do a better post about today, but let me just tell you that today was weigh in and.... drum roll....

5lbs lost :)

Not such a bad week after all!

My Goals

I am a little late writing this post - but I wanted to write, for my record and a way to look back next Jan and see where I have been.

Family
I want to spend more time with them. I have grandparents who are ill, parents who are stressed and a family that is more scattered than I wish to think about. But I want to make more time for longer phone conversations, more visits and more memories.

I want to be closer to starting my own lol. This is something very important to me, and I pray that God sees it in my near future.

Work

I want to find a job I love. I don't mind my current job, I like most of the people in my office - but I want/need more money and really want something I LOVE.


Finances
I want to have at least my personal goal to be in savings. I want to spend a little less but still have money to do things I want. Is this possible??


Organization
I want to become more organized. From my car to my desk to even my closet I need better organization.

I want to have a better grasp on papers and keeping my desk clean. I really need to become more organized.

Exercise
I will be at the gym no less than 4 days a week!
I will loose the weight this year. No if/ands/or buts!

Health
I will start to eat better, avoid fast food and make better food choices.

School
I will finish these four courses in the spring and be in grad school in the fall!


I will keep uptodate on my laundry - even putting it away.
I will get up for work early and on time. And make sure I am put together before I leave.
I will no longer hit the SNOOZE button 23439 times before crawling out of bed.
I will get my 8 glasses of water a day and enjoy them, LOL
I will spend more time with people that make me happy and less with those who don't.
I will go on another 2 trips this year. Somewhere, anywhere anything PLEASE.
I will go to the beach this year^ this can be one of my trips it just HAS to happen
I will take better care of me.
I will try to be happier than yesterday, everyday! :)

Swimming swimming in the swimming pool....

Tonight starts my first water aerobic class. It is part of my gum membership benefits! A professor in the department I work with goes as well as another professor's wife, so I am interested in seeing how it goes. I am nervous about the swimsuit issue but oh well, what can I do. I have been looking on line for a cuter suit but don't want to spend the money on one until I loose the weight. I have my second eval Thursday at 6:30 (AM) so that is exciting. I think. I have set mini-goals and a total amount loss goal and a pretty fair time line, I think. Turning 25 scares me, SCARES ME, but I vow to make it my healthiest year yet!!