It is too cold....

I feel the winter sludge. It hasn't been above 35 degrees in 2 weeks or so. That is far too cold to run outdoors in my opinion. I haven't been to the gym in months. And my eating habits leave a lot to be desired.  I went a head and preregistered for the on site (during my lunch) for Weight Watchers - it really helped last time, having the weekly weigh in and being held accountable for my weight in front of others really does make me think twice about what I am putting in my mouth.

I am also going to a four day work week until the end of March - I am hoping I can force myself out of bed extremely early on two of my four work days and head to the gym.  Me and mornings do not go well together but I have to give something somewhere.

Funk

I have hit the exercise funk. I took a few weeks off because life got busy, now I am finding it hard to get back in the groove. Last night I went for a swim, I love swimming. But last night, my heart wasn't there. I ran the other night for the first time in a few weeks, my side cramped and I was beat. Again, my heart wasn't there.

This weekend, besides watching and going to football, I am going to come up with a schedule. A better schedule, a schedule that works. I have to get out of the funk. Exercise isn't a chore...or so I keep telling myself

Let's be honest

Last week's weigh in really hit me hard.  It was tough to see the gain when I was trying so hard, I mean yes I ate out but I really was being careful.  Or so I thought.  Now, I would say a good 3 or 4lbs of that is water weight.  Plain and simple - I had a massage the night before and I drank at least 3 gallons of water in the 24 hours leading up to the massage and after.  Put that with my normal water retention during my period and yes, I'll have a weight gain.

I am very, very nervous about tomorrow's weigh in.  I honestly have no idea how I will do.  I think I should do well, but really with last week's numbers I have no clue.

I have been eating wonderfully - still need more fruits and veggies but to be honest that is just because pay day is close and it is the end of the "cycle" clean out fridge time. I will complete week 6 tomorrow of the C25K program.  We finished intervals, we will now be running for block amounts of time each run.  I am ok with that I just wish I could get faster.  I'll save that for another post, LOL.

I have added swimming into the routine this week again and really, REALLY watching every single thing that goes in my mouth.

I think my gain and disappointment from last week has got in my head but I need to refocus and hopefully have a great weigh in tomorrow.  Please keep your fingers crossed?

This week won't be pretty.

My lovely running partner had some work related things to do (so she says, I think she just wanted to torture me and make me dread this 20 min run coming up) so our last day of week 5 will be tomorrow, bright and early.

We did use our local health club/gym and swim last night. It felt great. I know I burnt some calories but I felt amazing after. And boy did I sleep well! Something about being in the water just makes me feel so relaxed.

Speaking of relaxed, tonight is my massage. Ahhhh, thanks Insurance for covering those! I love them!!!

Now food wise this week, well I have struggled. I have had a lunch meeting at Ihop, Mexican, pizza and Olive Garden this week. Stayed within or very close to points but lets face it, those bread sticks are mighty tasty and they go down mighty fast.It has been a week of eating out (not by my choice really) lots of company in town and friends meeting up before school starts back in session. One thing I promised my self when I started my health kick and losing this weight is I would never be without things. I can't eat an entire pizza anymore, I know that - but if I want a few (2) slices, so be it. I will hit the gym a little harder, drink water with it and have a big salad with low fat dressing to make me feel full faster. I won't live in a box in my house to lose this weight. It isn't practical or smart. I love food, LOVE it ( duh, look at my weight) so I have to make good choices and plan better. I still will live this life loving food, just no longer letting the food be in control.


I didn't mean to get off on a tangent. Point being I am nervous for weigh in tomorrow. I don't think I will be getting any awards lol :) or motivational prizes!

It is funny, I have friends and family, that call or text every Thursday after lunch (or sometime in the day) to see how weigh in goes...it embarrasses me and upsets me when I can't tell them at least 2lbs gone. I hate reporting back to y'all about how I did if I don't have a good week too. For some reason it makes me extra accountable and I love it. Weighing in with the girls from work is also great motivation. I know I want to beat them in weight loss (I love them all but who wants to be the one the loosest the least?) so I am really going to channel this motivation and make next week even better. Whatever happens tomorrow is this week, next week is on my mind now.....

Already Tuesday??

Where did the weekend go? Where did Monday go?

I met Rebecca yesterday for an early morning run. Week 5, day 2 - 8min run, 5 min walk, 8 min run - ughhh

It was a beautiful morning to run, I did it. I wasn't fast but I ran it and didn't stop. Tomorrow it is a 20 min straight run. HA, really did I just type that? If you don't hear from me for days, it is because I have had some sort of stroke and maybe dying in my bedroom. Please send help. Thanks.

I took a half of day yesterday. Met a friend for lunch, Old navy shopped and then I went home cleaned a little and met my g'parents who were in town for a wedding and waited for my brother to get off work so we could go to dinner. Olive Garden was yummy, the company was even better. I love spending times with my grandparents. They are amazing people!

Today I came into work, worked some Blogged more and enjoyed the day. Tonight I am meeting Rebecca to start swimming - I am going to add that to my exercise and pick up a spin class and something else this month. I am kicking my butt skinny :)

A little bit of this and that

I have some random things on my mind, what's new right? So please forgive my choppy post that I am about to write, promise to still be friends after? Thanks!

It appears my brother is moving in with me tonight. I am totally ok with this and don't mind. However, you do remember I am getting a roommate this weekend that will now be taking over the guest room. Guess Zachy is taking the couch. Luckily he doesn't have a lot of stuff to move in and he is pretty go with the flow. Most days.

A woman that is backwards nice (the type that has no social skills, tries but in the next breath throws you under the bus) just asked me if I was losing weight. She said you keep getting skinner and skinner....I will take it as a complement and not that she thinks my rear end is getting HUGE...I mean BIGGER than HUGE. :)

We finished up week 4 today. I am still waiting for the endurance and speed to kick in. I am completing the runs. Doing ok, no speed runner that is for sure, but I still feel winded and sore and the last run of the series hurts. Each week I do it, and I am proud of myself. Someday sooner than later I will be able to run 30 mins without blinking an eye. Right?

Tomorrow is weigh in, I really hope to see something higher than 2. A 4 would be great. My problem is right now I am under eating, for this week. Ha, what a change. I run every other day, walk the dog for a few miles on the off night and I have been doing Yoga. Once my brother's car situation gets figured out I will start back up group exercise classes and weights at the gym. Right now it is just too much. So I eat some but I am usually trying to be a million different places that eating out of boredom isn't an issue and neither is feeling hungry when I am not. Now if I could just figure out how to do the weekends right.... I stay within points or use some of my bonus every now and then but I am home more so the urges come.
I am 3lbs away from 25 and my 10%. It would be amazing to hit both of those this weigh in. Keep your fingers crossed, please?!

Part of my insurance benefits covers massage therapy. So in 3 hours I will be getting a nice 60 minute massage for 11$ :) Not a bad way to end today!
I am going to start needing new clothes sooner than later. I am going to try to make it another 15lbs or so before I shop. I have enough friends that I think I can swap clothes with to make it work for awhile. One thing I will need soon is bras. My poor bubbies, they aren’t keeping their shape or size. I am ok with it. Whatever needs to happen to lose weight is OK with this girl. Although I would be lying if I said I didn’t want my thighs and midsection to shrink instead! When did you start noticing a difference in your clothes? Where did you lose it first?


Alright I better go get some work done; I will post tomorrow after weigh in. I am going to try and find some pics and when I reach 200lbs I am going to do a series, maybe then I will really be able to tell the difference!

TGIF

So I didn't post after weigh in yesterday, I got busy with work. But I am down another 1lb. Now after coming off a 5lb lose - I knew it would be small, but come on let me see at least a 2!

This week I vow to run harder, lift heavier and eat lighter!

Speaking of running, Rebecca and I started week 4 yesterday. I got some new shoes, prescription strength muscle rub and some serious stretching in before hand. I felt pretty good during the run. Now I am slow and poor Rebecca has to run ahead of me and then circle back when she gets to far ahead, but she is a GREAT sport and doesn't seem to mind :) I was slow this run, I mean helllllloooo we ran 5 minutes at a time! This girl has never done that before so I was happy. My leg, muscle whatever is going on felt pretty good, tight still and by the end it was hurting but nothing like the run before. This heat though is killer, I got in my car and I was dizzy and hot - we are talking near 100 degree heat during the day. Running at 6:30am and it is still 80ish degrees. Too hot! Sometime this weekend we need to get in day 2 of week 4. I mean after that run, we are kinda like half way done. Wow.

Life is going Ok. I am getting a room mate next weekend to help with some financial issues. Not totally happy with it, but I need the financial assistance right now. I am trying to figure out my plan, what God wants from me and what I need to do. The big picture is just so unclear right now. So until the light bulb goes off, I will keep working on getting the weight off ;)

Weight Watchers, Couch to 5k and diet....

So I joined through an at work program. We are on week 15. I have lost some weight. 18lbs (I think) I am ok with that number. I am ok with the program. But I know I have to start getting more veggies, I do Ok here, and FRUITS in! I am doing the Couch to 5k program. Really having fun with it. I am starting week 3, as you all know from the last post, and really have enjoyed my time. Although I feel like I am dying and boy is it hard. I know it is for what is best. I have p90x and Insanity. Both are killer work outs and tough. But right now I am ok with the Couch to 5k. Once I get the car situation figured out I am going to start doing some water aerobics, water running and water zumba - Throw in a few other aerobic classes and I will be happy. It is soooo much easier gaining weight. I am not happy with myself or the way I look right now. I have lost more weight in the last year than I knew - thanks to a drs visit in Feb then following up this month I am down 40+lbs. But that stills leaves me a lot to lose! Weigh in is Thursday - wait that is tomorrow! Wow, yeah! I am excited, nervous and ready. I get anxious before weigh ins, they can either make or break my day.

As far as body changes go - You can tell in the chest area, ahem the girls, that I have lost weight. New bras are needed BAD. But I want to lose another 15-20 before I buy them because these are working ok and the next set will have to last a few months. If I have to give up my boobs to get skinny, so be it.

Good bye boobs, hello small waste :)

Couch to 5K End of Week 2

Well week two is over. Whew, it was a hot week - we added hills and the time increased. Did I mention it was HOT!?

Tonight we will move on to week 3. Running the same amount of time each sprint but our walks get shorter - so we will be running more really. Clear as mud, right?

I am nervous. Really nervous. But I mean worse case I have to walk a little bit of it I guess.

I am also nervous for weigh in on Thursday. I have done pretty well eating wise and getting my water in. Last week I gained .5 so that was hard but I am hoping for a great weigh in this week! :-)

Week 2 Day 1

Whew, this was a tough day. We incorporated hills and the running increments increased. We also got up and met at 6:30, it was going to be the coolest part of the day, 68 or so degrees and not a ton of humidity. It was tough but I took a half break (walked) part of one of the 90 seconds run and I really didn't go very fast. But I did it. And I feel great! Really proud of myself. We will rest tomorrow and then get back on the horse Friday. It will be under 90 degrees so hopefully it won't be too hot. I am excited to keep the progression and I am proud of myself. I am actually "running" Thanks Rebecca for going back to the basics with me! I wouldn't have made it through Week 1, Day 1 without you!

Couch to 5k, completed week 1

I stared the Couch to 5k program last week! I have an amazing running buddy/friend that has completed it already and is backtracking her progression to start over with me! REBECCA thanks again :) I def wouldn't have made it through week 1 with out you!

If you aren't familiar with Couch to 5k check it out!

Week 1 was a bit tough -

Day 1 - I felt great - I thought I can do this, this is awesome. Had some minor leg cramps at home that night but nothing that some Potassium and water with lots of stretching can't fix!

Day 2 - Ughh, it was harder than Day 1 but I still completed it and felt OK after we were over.

Day 3 - My thoughts were - SHOULDN'T THIS BE GETTING EASIER?!?! I did it, it was tough and man did I sweat. It makes me wonder how bad week 2 will be tomorrow.

Over all I am really pleased with this and really enjoying the runs and making myself healthier. I worry about the impact on my knees (sadly, I have put on enough weight where that concerns me) but so far so good and hopefully with Weight Watchers and working out and running my weight will continue to go down and those worries won't matter!

Tomorrow starts Week 2. I think I can, I think I can....

Swimming swimming in the swimming pool....

Tonight starts my first water aerobic class. It is part of my gum membership benefits! A professor in the department I work with goes as well as another professor's wife, so I am interested in seeing how it goes. I am nervous about the swimsuit issue but oh well, what can I do. I have been looking on line for a cuter suit but don't want to spend the money on one until I loose the weight. I have my second eval Thursday at 6:30 (AM) so that is exciting. I think. I have set mini-goals and a total amount loss goal and a pretty fair time line, I think. Turning 25 scares me, SCARES ME, but I vow to make it my healthiest year yet!!