74lbs away

I am currently 74lbs away from my overall weight loss goal. I didn't realize how heavy I got until a return trip to the OBGYN last week. I had last been there in February. I forgot how much weight I have actually lost. I battle with posting numbers here. I am afraid, ashamed and embarrassed. I don't want people to wonder how I let myself go. Really though, how did I? I am sure it has something to do with the year I spent alone and feeling friendless. It was a horrible time for me my junior year of college. Horrible room mates left me feeling alone and so upset with the way girls treated each other and how catty women could be - I turned to food. Once you turn to it, it is hard to stop.

I went home for the summer, where food was always good, lots of it and soooo yummy that I just couldn't stop eating one plate. My weight sky rocketed and I slowly started climbing up the mountain of obesity. I am kicking fat's ass though. After an awesome weigh in yesterday (down 5lbs) and starting week 3, of C25K - I am feeling good. So I have goals. Goals I want to beat and achieve and really, I KNOW I CAN!

1. BIG GOAL - GET OUT OF THE 200'S - so that means I have to loose 38lbs to be at 199lbs. (ugh did I really just type that?!?!?!)
2. Our first home football game is 9/4/10 I want to be at no more than 210 for kick off. I think I can, I think I can.
3. 9/25/10 - Ideally this is when I'd be out of the 200's...
4. Halloween - I want to be able to go out and feel good, dress up in something I would have picked years ago.
5. Thanksgiving - I want to be in the 190's or less. I have to be. PLEASE :) And thank you.
6. I will run my first 5K Early to late September. I am hoping Rebecca will run it with me :)
7. Make healthy choices no longer a choice, just a way of life.
8. I want to shop for new skinny clothes this Christmas. When we take our girlcation, I want to not be plus size. I want to make 2010 the last year I will shop plus size.
9. I want to help motivate my mom and dad into losing weight. One day, I pray, I will give them grandchildren. I want my parents to be around forever. They need to be healthier.
10. I want to appreciate every single day. I deserve to be healthy. I deserve to give my body, mind and soul all the nourishment it needs. I AM WORTH IT :)

My Goals

I am a little late writing this post - but I wanted to write, for my record and a way to look back next Jan and see where I have been.

Family
I want to spend more time with them. I have grandparents who are ill, parents who are stressed and a family that is more scattered than I wish to think about. But I want to make more time for longer phone conversations, more visits and more memories.

I want to be closer to starting my own lol. This is something very important to me, and I pray that God sees it in my near future.

Work

I want to find a job I love. I don't mind my current job, I like most of the people in my office - but I want/need more money and really want something I LOVE.


Finances
I want to have at least my personal goal to be in savings. I want to spend a little less but still have money to do things I want. Is this possible??


Organization
I want to become more organized. From my car to my desk to even my closet I need better organization.

I want to have a better grasp on papers and keeping my desk clean. I really need to become more organized.

Exercise
I will be at the gym no less than 4 days a week!
I will loose the weight this year. No if/ands/or buts!

Health
I will start to eat better, avoid fast food and make better food choices.

School
I will finish these four courses in the spring and be in grad school in the fall!


I will keep uptodate on my laundry - even putting it away.
I will get up for work early and on time. And make sure I am put together before I leave.
I will no longer hit the SNOOZE button 23439 times before crawling out of bed.
I will get my 8 glasses of water a day and enjoy them, LOL
I will spend more time with people that make me happy and less with those who don't.
I will go on another 2 trips this year. Somewhere, anywhere anything PLEASE.
I will go to the beach this year^ this can be one of my trips it just HAS to happen
I will take better care of me.
I will try to be happier than yesterday, everyday! :)

Goals

So the past few years have been a whirl-wind. Some good times, some bad times and a few numb moments but for the most part it was so fast nothing really stands out. Except the fact I am not where I want to be. I am happy with some aspects of my life but not all...sooooo I am going to make some goals. I am going to hold myself accountable for these goals! Hopefully it will all work out and I will see progress... I am going to blog about them and figure out what I need to change to get things back in order, the way I want things to be... These are my short term goals - my long term goals are going to be posted later this week. I want to take the time to really put a lot of thought in them....



Short term - by the end of the year

• loose 15lbs - ughh
• get the Christmas Club set up through my bank - the money will not be used for Christmas, more like a vacation club :)
• Figure out a budget, a realistic one and STICK to it. Any help or ideas would be great!
• Find a way to increase my income. Start small but I need to make more money.
• Eat healthier - cut back on soda, junk and bored food (tv snacks, laying around snacks...etc)
• Go to the gym 5 times a week - try for 6
• Go through my clothes
• Re-organize bed room - possibly paint
• keep my desk organized
• laugh more, love harder and cry less....