Really fast...

Ok so last week's weigh in I gained a lot of weight. I knew it was water and so on and period weight but I also made horrible choices.  So the week before the nasty weigh in I weighed 235 - last week I gained a tonnnnn but this week I weighed 233.  I lost all last week's weight plus 2lbs.  WHOHOOOO! Nothing taste as good as thin feels :)

crap

well today's weigh in wasn't great. It sucked actually, so bad in fact we put an SKIP in today's week and I will never see that number.

I blame it on my poor food choices, my period and the water weight and most of all my eating.

So here is to forgetting today's number and next week's losing number!

This week won't be pretty.

My lovely running partner had some work related things to do (so she says, I think she just wanted to torture me and make me dread this 20 min run coming up) so our last day of week 5 will be tomorrow, bright and early.

We did use our local health club/gym and swim last night. It felt great. I know I burnt some calories but I felt amazing after. And boy did I sleep well! Something about being in the water just makes me feel so relaxed.

Speaking of relaxed, tonight is my massage. Ahhhh, thanks Insurance for covering those! I love them!!!

Now food wise this week, well I have struggled. I have had a lunch meeting at Ihop, Mexican, pizza and Olive Garden this week. Stayed within or very close to points but lets face it, those bread sticks are mighty tasty and they go down mighty fast.It has been a week of eating out (not by my choice really) lots of company in town and friends meeting up before school starts back in session. One thing I promised my self when I started my health kick and losing this weight is I would never be without things. I can't eat an entire pizza anymore, I know that - but if I want a few (2) slices, so be it. I will hit the gym a little harder, drink water with it and have a big salad with low fat dressing to make me feel full faster. I won't live in a box in my house to lose this weight. It isn't practical or smart. I love food, LOVE it ( duh, look at my weight) so I have to make good choices and plan better. I still will live this life loving food, just no longer letting the food be in control.


I didn't mean to get off on a tangent. Point being I am nervous for weigh in tomorrow. I don't think I will be getting any awards lol :) or motivational prizes!

It is funny, I have friends and family, that call or text every Thursday after lunch (or sometime in the day) to see how weigh in goes...it embarrasses me and upsets me when I can't tell them at least 2lbs gone. I hate reporting back to y'all about how I did if I don't have a good week too. For some reason it makes me extra accountable and I love it. Weighing in with the girls from work is also great motivation. I know I want to beat them in weight loss (I love them all but who wants to be the one the loosest the least?) so I am really going to channel this motivation and make next week even better. Whatever happens tomorrow is this week, next week is on my mind now.....

Updates from the scales...

So down another 1lb. I feel like my next milestone is taunting me. Next week, next week I'll break boundaries and get passed it. I will post later about the begining of week 5 and other musings but for the time being 1lb has left my body and will never return!

THE BIG M

That is what I got today when I weighed in, Maintain. Ughhh. Disappointed, frustrated and blah.

I actually wanted to leave today before the meeting started, but I made myself stick it out and I am glad I did. It was tough but next, next week dammit I will do my 25lbs. Ughhh

That's it for today. - I am going to have a food free pity party.

TGIF

So I didn't post after weigh in yesterday, I got busy with work. But I am down another 1lb. Now after coming off a 5lb lose - I knew it would be small, but come on let me see at least a 2!

This week I vow to run harder, lift heavier and eat lighter!

Speaking of running, Rebecca and I started week 4 yesterday. I got some new shoes, prescription strength muscle rub and some serious stretching in before hand. I felt pretty good during the run. Now I am slow and poor Rebecca has to run ahead of me and then circle back when she gets to far ahead, but she is a GREAT sport and doesn't seem to mind :) I was slow this run, I mean helllllloooo we ran 5 minutes at a time! This girl has never done that before so I was happy. My leg, muscle whatever is going on felt pretty good, tight still and by the end it was hurting but nothing like the run before. This heat though is killer, I got in my car and I was dizzy and hot - we are talking near 100 degree heat during the day. Running at 6:30am and it is still 80ish degrees. Too hot! Sometime this weekend we need to get in day 2 of week 4. I mean after that run, we are kinda like half way done. Wow.

Life is going Ok. I am getting a room mate next weekend to help with some financial issues. Not totally happy with it, but I need the financial assistance right now. I am trying to figure out my plan, what God wants from me and what I need to do. The big picture is just so unclear right now. So until the light bulb goes off, I will keep working on getting the weight off ;)

Weight Watchers, Couch to 5k and diet....

So I joined through an at work program. We are on week 15. I have lost some weight. 18lbs (I think) I am ok with that number. I am ok with the program. But I know I have to start getting more veggies, I do Ok here, and FRUITS in! I am doing the Couch to 5k program. Really having fun with it. I am starting week 3, as you all know from the last post, and really have enjoyed my time. Although I feel like I am dying and boy is it hard. I know it is for what is best. I have p90x and Insanity. Both are killer work outs and tough. But right now I am ok with the Couch to 5k. Once I get the car situation figured out I am going to start doing some water aerobics, water running and water zumba - Throw in a few other aerobic classes and I will be happy. It is soooo much easier gaining weight. I am not happy with myself or the way I look right now. I have lost more weight in the last year than I knew - thanks to a drs visit in Feb then following up this month I am down 40+lbs. But that stills leaves me a lot to lose! Weigh in is Thursday - wait that is tomorrow! Wow, yeah! I am excited, nervous and ready. I get anxious before weigh ins, they can either make or break my day.

As far as body changes go - You can tell in the chest area, ahem the girls, that I have lost weight. New bras are needed BAD. But I want to lose another 15-20 before I buy them because these are working ok and the next set will have to last a few months. If I have to give up my boobs to get skinny, so be it.

Good bye boobs, hello small waste :)

Friday Fragments

1. This is the first weekend since May I haven't been stressed. Life is slowing done. Apartment is coming together. No worries about G'ma and everything is going OK too.

2. I am dogsitting my friends pup. Buster is LOVING having a playmate. I miss my old yard now though. She is a great dog and we look forward to seeing her all week :)

3. Next weekend is a LOOONNNGGG weekend! WHOOHOO! I am not sure what I will do but hopefully nothing to stressful!

4. My brother's car blew up :( However, this means I have been taking him to and from work. It has been nice seeing him for those time periods. I have a really awesome brother.

5. I have been doing Weight Watchers at work. I am down almost 20lbs! Still have a lot of weight to lose, but my first big goal is 30. Almost there :)

6. I went to dinner last night with my potential roommate, he is coming back in a week to stay two weeks. Hopefully this works out, the extra income would be AWESOME!

7. Guilty pleasure of the weekend will be catching up on the RealHousewives of NJ and NY. :)