74lbs away

I am currently 74lbs away from my overall weight loss goal. I didn't realize how heavy I got until a return trip to the OBGYN last week. I had last been there in February. I forgot how much weight I have actually lost. I battle with posting numbers here. I am afraid, ashamed and embarrassed. I don't want people to wonder how I let myself go. Really though, how did I? I am sure it has something to do with the year I spent alone and feeling friendless. It was a horrible time for me my junior year of college. Horrible room mates left me feeling alone and so upset with the way girls treated each other and how catty women could be - I turned to food. Once you turn to it, it is hard to stop.

I went home for the summer, where food was always good, lots of it and soooo yummy that I just couldn't stop eating one plate. My weight sky rocketed and I slowly started climbing up the mountain of obesity. I am kicking fat's ass though. After an awesome weigh in yesterday (down 5lbs) and starting week 3, of C25K - I am feeling good. So I have goals. Goals I want to beat and achieve and really, I KNOW I CAN!

1. BIG GOAL - GET OUT OF THE 200'S - so that means I have to loose 38lbs to be at 199lbs. (ugh did I really just type that?!?!?!)
2. Our first home football game is 9/4/10 I want to be at no more than 210 for kick off. I think I can, I think I can.
3. 9/25/10 - Ideally this is when I'd be out of the 200's...
4. Halloween - I want to be able to go out and feel good, dress up in something I would have picked years ago.
5. Thanksgiving - I want to be in the 190's or less. I have to be. PLEASE :) And thank you.
6. I will run my first 5K Early to late September. I am hoping Rebecca will run it with me :)
7. Make healthy choices no longer a choice, just a way of life.
8. I want to shop for new skinny clothes this Christmas. When we take our girlcation, I want to not be plus size. I want to make 2010 the last year I will shop plus size.
9. I want to help motivate my mom and dad into losing weight. One day, I pray, I will give them grandchildren. I want my parents to be around forever. They need to be healthier.
10. I want to appreciate every single day. I deserve to be healthy. I deserve to give my body, mind and soul all the nourishment it needs. I AM WORTH IT :)