Just Breath....

The past twenty four hours has been an emotional roller coaster, complete with my very first official panic attack. I am over the stress, worry and heartache caused by adults who have nothing better to do than gossip. I am not sure what the next few weeks will unfold but I know that I am ready for pretty much anything, I think. I hope.

 I do know one thing, I have a pretty amazing man that had and will have my back no matter what.  I am afraid to post, afraid to say it out loud but I really do think the storm is dying down. I think. I hope.

Ugh

Things have been a tad overwhelming for me the past few weeks, I am really looking forward to laying on the couch, doing a little bit of cleaning and RELAXING all weekend. I know I already did a post today and it was a fragment post but I need to do another one. A possible opportunity has been presented to me. One that would bring HUGE change in my life.  More money (right around 8,000$ more a year) but NO benefits. No insurance, no retirement and no perks. 

However, the current job and possibly the new job are neither jobs I want forever.  I want to finish my Master's Degree and become a full-time teacher. So either way I will lose this retirement eventually. And 2 years without insurance. That is scary.  But with a BFF as a doctor and 4$ prescriptions and all my annuals done - it wouldn't be that scary, right?

What do y'all think? What would you do? I go Wednesday for a formal interview - so nothing is even for sure yet but we all know I am Type-A and I have to think about everything and analyze EVERYTHING.

Things I won't l let bother me this weekend...

1. Money, lack of...
2. Cable issues (under warrenty)
3. Dryer issues (under warrenty)
4. The Mess that is my bedroom
5. Having to go to the DMV sometime this month
6. Any stress
7. My job
8. My mean co worker
9. My desperate need for a pedicure
10. The heat


Things I will look forward to instead
1. Upcoming Monday night visit from my grandparents
2. Things still be under warrenty
3. Football season
4. A great apartment
5. My family
6. My friends
7. Pool Day
8. Drinking Margaritas
9. My brother being a great kid
10. My lovely little dog

Cars and Money

So things have been a little tough money wise the past few weeks. Moving, some personal expenses and just MOVING really hit hard in my budget. Top it off with my brother's car clunking out and my car this morning being towed in for some repairs it hasn't been easy.

My mom is waiting on some answers from the bank, please Lord let this be something that goes through.

I hate stressing over money. It literally makes your world so much more stressful. I know in my heart I need more money than what I make at current job. But I like my job, I keep watching for things within the University to open up. Internal employees get first bid - so I am waiting, praying and hoping.

In the mean time, anyone know where I can get a money tree? :)

Friday Fragments

1. This is the first weekend since May I haven't been stressed. Life is slowing done. Apartment is coming together. No worries about G'ma and everything is going OK too.

2. I am dogsitting my friends pup. Buster is LOVING having a playmate. I miss my old yard now though. She is a great dog and we look forward to seeing her all week :)

3. Next weekend is a LOOONNNGGG weekend! WHOOHOO! I am not sure what I will do but hopefully nothing to stressful!

4. My brother's car blew up :( However, this means I have been taking him to and from work. It has been nice seeing him for those time periods. I have a really awesome brother.

5. I have been doing Weight Watchers at work. I am down almost 20lbs! Still have a lot of weight to lose, but my first big goal is 30. Almost there :)

6. I went to dinner last night with my potential roommate, he is coming back in a week to stay two weeks. Hopefully this works out, the extra income would be AWESOME!

7. Guilty pleasure of the weekend will be catching up on the RealHousewives of NJ and NY. :)

Friday Fragments

1. Man have I been MIA - I have moved, ugghhh I think, 99.9% sure EVERYTHING of mine is out of my huge, nicely spaced 4 bedroom, attic & basement big back yard house - to my tiny two bedroom apartment. My life is chaos right now. REALLY chaotic. But it is done. Sat is the yard sale of all yard sales and then I shall never return to the old house. And to be honest, I couldn't be happier about my move! I LOVEEE my new place, the location, neighbors and everything in between!

2. My grandmother passed away. She deserves her own post. She will get it. When I can.

3. My brother and I got into something yucky while home visiting for the funeral. My rash is on my face, his all over. Thankfully my BFF is a doctor. He does house calls.

4. I love my job in the summer. I come in late, leave early and pretty much run the show. I also got a secretary. I don't want August to come. She leaves, faculty returns to work and my life goes back to chaos (at work atleast).

5. I am getting a room mate. A male room mate. A male roommate I really don't know. My friend knows him really well, we are going to try it out. Extra rent money never hurts.

6. WVU football is just around the corner. I CAN NOT WAIT. I won't go into an hour long post here about football. But let's just say, WVU FOOTBALL is one of my top 5 favorite things in the world!

7. I finally feel as if my life is having a purpose and some direction. New place, job going better, weight going down. Things are kinda ok right now. Grandmother was suffering so as horribly sad as her death was, we are at peace now. So that stress is gone and a snese of almost peace is there. Strange and maybe morbid but I am not trying to be. We loved her a lot and no one wants loved ones to suffer. So things are looking up. Money still isn't completly right but I see some light at the end of a very long tunnel