Happiness? Can you have it all?

What do you want out of the new year (goals and resolutions will come soon)? To put the answer very simple, all I want is to be happy.

However, happiness is different to every person. What makes me happy certainly wouldn't make most. But really, how does one become content with all aspects in your life?

Justin and I spent a lot of the weekend talking about being happy, making sure the other was happy and what made us happy. Truth be told, he makes me happier than I have ever been. I can and have been happy alone but the happiness I have found with him is describable.

The thing is other things in my life aren't as perfect. For once my love life is exactly where I want it to be. Now I just need to get everything else in order.

My job, I do feel blessed to have one in this economy and thankful that I can pay my bills, isn't fulfilling.  I do mind numbing task, deal with issues out of my call of duty and work for a department that is sinking faster than the Titanic.  I think my job is the main source of my discontentment, I have no room for growth or promotion at my job. Every day is a struggle to get myself up, ready and at work.  Once at work I really have no desire to do my work.  It is a HORRIBLE attitude and I hate that I feel this way. I was talking to my best friend about everything today and she said that it could be the weather (hear that Justin, take me to the beach ;) ) and just a winter funk but I really think I have to start looking ( I applied today) for something better and more of a fit for me.

I have also debated quitting my job completely, substitute teaching and finishing my Master's.  I am not sure if I am willing to take that chance and leave my finances up in the air so much.  I am very much a "Type A" so that is really, really hard for me.

Justin and I are also planning on moving in together this summer.  Moving in with him means I would make an hour commute each way - worth it to be with him, save HUGE on rent and bills (even with the extra fuel), but it is making me nervous. Not to live with him, but just the uncertain of everything.  When exactly will I move? What furniture will we keep?  What job will I be at? Will Justin get a Graduate Assistant job?  Would we be ahead to keep an apartment in town where we work and go to school till we are both done?  How do we know what choice is the right choice?

I am struggling on how to get everything I want.  Pretty selfish I know, but it is the truth. I want the most out of life and want each part in my life to be satisfying.

On a much happier note - I am sitting on Justin's couch, snuggled up and watching Real Housewives. Right now, at this moment. I couldn't be happier.....

Things I won't l let bother me this weekend...

1. Money, lack of...
2. Cable issues (under warrenty)
3. Dryer issues (under warrenty)
4. The Mess that is my bedroom
5. Having to go to the DMV sometime this month
6. Any stress
7. My job
8. My mean co worker
9. My desperate need for a pedicure
10. The heat


Things I will look forward to instead
1. Upcoming Monday night visit from my grandparents
2. Things still be under warrenty
3. Football season
4. A great apartment
5. My family
6. My friends
7. Pool Day
8. Drinking Margaritas
9. My brother being a great kid
10. My lovely little dog